Good Evening Everyone!!! I hope that everyone’s week is going well. I’ve kinda of had a rough week this week however; it’s going to be Friday and as the song says “…I’m working for the weekend!”
So let’s get to the heart of this post shall we. So I weighed in at Weight Watchers this Tuesday. I was down exactly 2 lbs. So what does this mean…(drum roll please) I am 1.2 lbs away from a total weight loss of 90 lbs. I cannot believe that I have made it this far. Man, prayer and that jaw wiring procedure was so worth it (just joking about that last part). So my current weight is 164.6. I have a few more pounds (about 14) until I’m at Weight Watchers goal weight. I’m not too sure if I want to get that low but I’m saying now, where ever my body decides to take me then I will follow. So I wanted to discuss something that recently came up during conversation with a fellow Weight Watcherer (I’m not too sure how to spell or say that but I like how is sounds). We were discussing weight loss and the struggles that go with it etc etc.
So this is what I have determined is the root of my struggle with weight. I am addicted to feeling full or being stuffed to the brim. I love that sensation of constantly feeling full, like I can’t eat one more bite or I am going to be sick kinda of feeling. I’m not too sure if this makes any sense to anyone else or if anyone has or is struggling with this.
A few years ago, I was going through some self discovery and I was trying to figure out the root of my overweightness and it hit me like a ton of bricks one night. I was eating to the point of being sick and then as soon as the feeling or sensation passed, I was going back to the kitchen and getting something else to bring back that feeling. I would eat whatever it was and then a half an hour or hour later I was back up going into the kitchen finding whatever else I could find to bring back that feeling. I was and still am addicted to feeling full/stuffed.
So recently (this past week) I was realizing that I was still doing the same thing. Even though it might not be with horrible, fatting foods, I am still doing it. I notice that the night time is the worst for me, probably out of boredom or just trying to deal with the stress of what the day has brought me. My hope and prayer is that I am trying to recognize this more in so that I can start getting this part of my life under control. I have the working out, the right food choice etc under control, but I surely do not have this part under control. At times it can be so frustrating and make me so angry because I can not understand why I can’t control this aspect of my life. I sometimes am yelling at myself as I am eating “Kim, get a grip, take control, you don’t need this!! You are ruining all the hard work that you have accomplished.”
So why am I bringing this up to you guys. Well of course, my hope is that if I am open and honest about my weight loss and struggles that it might help someone with whatever situation that they are currently going through. I used to tell people that I was addicted to food or I really liked eating (wasn’t it obvious) but I really didn’t take time to look at what was really going on; what the root of the problem really was.
So this is what I ask of my fellow readers and friends. Take a moment when you have some time to yourself (my best time is when I am driving) and start examining your life. If you are struggling with eating and weight loss or weight gain or whatever other aspect of your life that you don’t like and try to figure out what is the root of the problem. This might take a while to come up with. It is so hard for us to do self examination but I firmly believe that once you can get to the root of the problem, then your struggle will become so much more manageable and you can become so much more successful with whatever your struggle is. Don’t just state the obvious…”oh my weight gain is because I really like food, duh!” It might be but everyone that I have talked that has struggled with weight there has always been something more to the story. Well, take some time and start writing that story and see what you come up with. You are sooooo worth it, believe me. Just try and start today or tomorrow and see what you come up with. You might think it is pointless or who cares. Well, again you are not pointless, you were made for a purpose and I do care!! Start writing it down and see what happens.
So enough of the mushy stuff, I hope that each and every one of you is doing well. Please let me know if you have any questions, comments or any feedback would be great. I hope that you guys like what I’m posting. Please feel free to comment any ideas or suggestions that you are looking for. I’m hoping to have a dear friend of mine guest blog soon. She is fabulous and someone that I really look up to about weight loss and life in general.
Oh, this weekend I will be posting a recipe that came from my dear friend’s mother. It is a low point breakfast item that is fabulous and sure to please anyone.
Wishing you well,
Kim
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